Hef kept his girls under thumb, denying them jobs, holidays, and making them adhere to a 9pm curfew every night. Throughout this time she convinced herself she loved him, ignored the negatives, and dreaded being kicked out because she was sure no one else could ever want her a mindset common among victims of abuse. Glad to find herself with a secure, if rather expensive roof over her head, Holly didn’t realise quite what she was getting herself into – namely seven years in an emotionally abusive relationship, being constantly reminded that she was “replaceable”, and that she should be seen and not heard. A night out with the girlfriends and Hef – a man some fifty-four years her senior who offered her “thigh opening” Quaaludes – and one very strange, blink-and-you’ll-miss-it bedroom routine later, and Holly was told “You can stay for a while and we’ll see how it works out.” She took advantage of her foot in the door at the playboy mansion and asked Hef if she could move in. What you may not realise is that these were the roles dictated to the girls by the producers of the show, and Hef himself.Ī university student of twenty-two, struggling to make ends meet, Holly was about to find herself without a place to live. If you ever caught an episode of the show Girls Next Door, you’d be well aware of the fact that Kendra was the one who wanted to have fun, Bridget was the one who wanted a career, and Holly was the one who cared about Hef… BOOK REVIEW: Down the Rabbit Hole by Holly Madison

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